4 More Months Of Hell..help

Hi all, Ive joined this community because I feel as if I have nowhere else to turn. I am a 17 year old girl and a senior in highschool, and I absolutely despise it. I go to a very white, very suburban athletic school. I have never had a problem making friends, for my first three years of highschool i was *shudder* very popular, out every weekend with friends, etc etc. Now, however, as I am starting to come into myself more and realizing that I am not a clone, basic person like those ive devoted my time to, I find myself alone more and more...its to the point that I do not think I have one true friend on this earth. I know this may seem measly but unfortunately, being IN highschool currently, it seems like a huge deal. I struggle with severe anxiety and I can't stand this feeling that this is the be all and end all...need some help realizing it does get better. thanks all.
pariah12 pariah12
18-21
1 Response Jan 9, 2013

Sure, it gets better. High school is one of the most turbulnet times in a person's life. However, it's hard for me to have sympathy for you. It sounds like you had a great time for three years not thinking, and now all of a sudden you've reached that point of self consciousness here in your senior year. Try living like that your whole life, that's MY LIFE. I was pumped through with ritalin from second grade. Any friends I had were either crazy or didn't care. High school I might as well have killed myself, no friends, no one to talk to, no teachers liked me, douchebags making fun of me all the time, being isolated from everyone, and you say YOU have it tough.
I say, smoke a little weed and get yourself some beer or a boyfriend, you've always been fine and you'll be fine. Just remember that those people you might despise or don't understand are going through the same thing you are even though you may not be able to see it. It's important in life to have passions to focus on, and a love of yourself and what you could one day accomplish or wish to accomplish.
I wish you all the best.