In a Nutshell, But Not All Inclusive...

 I was born to a very young couple that started their relationship with many problems. During the course of their abusive relationship, my mother had two more children who were boys, which made me not only the oldest, but the only girl as well.

     There are many times of my childhood that I do not remember. I think the reason for this is what Sigmund Freud calls repression, a defense mechanism, (Adult Development, table 2.1, pg 25). I never remember my father living with us but he personified fear to me in later years. I always thought it was because he was a big guy but I know now that I must have repressed memories of him beating my mother. He died at the age of 42 years old from alcoholism. What I do remember is that life was tough. My parents divorced before I was 4 years old and I never

     My mother is a weak person as well as an enabler to people who have any type of addictions. During my childhood, my mother was addicted to many things including, but not limited to, alcohol, drugs, pain pills, and men. With a mom like this, I was forced at a very young age, to be grown up because I had to take care of her and my brothers, cook, clean, and when she was in between men, I had to be her “spouse”, not in any sexual sense, but in finances, decision-making, guidance in life, etc. I never had a childhood of playing with babies or skipping rope.
LotusLady LotusLady
36-40, F
1 Response Feb 9, 2008

I hear you sister