I Hate This....

I have problems with phobia of falling and it is slowly working its way into my life as a big problem. I cant be up in a tall place and look down or even straight because I will realize how high I am and that if I fell, I am going to die. I used to have the same problem with looking up and seeing tall ceilings, imagining that I was up there and then falling to my unfortunate demise. I hate feeling this way and I wish I could change that, but I get so emotional in those situations, I just cant do it. I have tried pushing myself to go a little bit higher and a little bit closer to the edge but I end up scared out of my right mind and crying. It is holding me back from some of the things I would like to do and see. I just simply hate it.

weakintheknees weakintheknees
18-21, F
Mar 9, 2010