To The Baby I Carried And Lost <3

i wonder what happens to babies who die
do they transform magically into a butterfly

with gossamer wings lift up to the sky?

the little bright soul you were  not yet born
in my heart i carry you noon night and morn'.

i console myself i say you may have been ill
i was malnourished and somewhat sick
your dad was a bit of a ****
[(sorry but you already know this)]

i wonder what has become of you?
do you watch over us as I think you do?

why did you leave little one
what do i need to draw from your impression
and presence in my life?

I love you and always will
Lunadelobos Lunadelobos
20 Responses Jun 1, 2011

Thanks Kim.<br />
*hugs*<br />
K :)

Another comment to clarify for EmoStunted, between lives we plan our hurdles and hardships and the teachers we meet along the way, we also remember eventually what we have learned in the past thru experinces in this human coat, lol - thats what I know, we have a soul group that we evolve with, yet not always incarnate with. Usually a group of 10-15, but there are times that members of other soul groups will incarnate for the good of both, even though it may be to bring pain to the other. I believe and personally know that I chose my parents, I slap my forehead sometimes wondering why. But Through diligence towards obtaining the goals of our inner spirit, we may go thru many hard times (by choice) personally, I feel like I have been thru so much that others would not survive, it is one thing after another, and I gain great wisdom at my continued pitfalls and landmines and can see them as events that will bring me closer or beyond what my spirit came here to accomplish. Read some stuff under my old name, KrazyKimberly, lusted as one of my friends. I wrote many wonderful and weird stuff. lol.

Thank you ES *warm fuzzy hugs*<br />

dear laniebug, i wrote you a big speil on your story. <br />
i am sorry if i come off as a bit preaching, i have a daughter about your age.I really can empathize and it`s a terrible pain, i am sorry dear for your loss!<br />
please read what i worte dear.<br />
thank you very very much for you kindness!<br />
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you are welcome to write to me, and i am here if you need me, to talk ,or complain or just ask , i will do my best to help you.<br />
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i do also believe like you said and my friend here said our lost babies are souls who we are close to from past lives, she is watching over you with great love! <br />
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Warm healing hugs, filled with self love for you and fuzzy comfort, K.

im a teenager who lost a baby. i believe shes my little angel up there watching over us (me and my boyfriend). he calls her his little guardian angel.. he says sometimes when she come to his mind randomly, he wonders if its her letting him know "im here"...<br />
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im so very sorry u had to go through this, i understand what its like... i have so many unanswered questions and so much grief. **big hugs to you**

thank you, i appreciate your kindness.

I am heart heavy for your loss...

Oh thank you bukks :) <br />
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I am double blessed ~ I am a mother to an incredible kind and strong willed teenager girl child<3!!<br />
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She is the light of my life :)))

sorry about yr loss kurz! Am not a mother yet but i can imagine what a woman can feel when she lost her baby.... Another one will come....keep hope alive!!

Thanks Kim *hugs*

I am glad that something I believe/know as my truth could help you - It does make too much sense it seems, but i have over the years done much research, especially in life after death and life between lives etc. since we are all gonna go home, I want to know all I can, I dont believe all that I have researched, but when it is felt in my spirit core, then I add to it and after many years, I am gaining more ground like a grasshopper, my spirit has her agenda and i just have to stay out of her way as best i can, yet it is difficult being human, but I do know that when i go into the woods alone and take my journal and just relax and start writing, and open myself up to the wisdom of my inner wise warrior, I grasp it much better. Like a light bulb. Then ointo the next unexpected event.

Wow you sort of confirmed what I believe too Kim, it's very heartening and comforting to read this, thank you!!!<br />
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Hugs, <br />
xo K.

This is my view on what happens to babes and why they were here for such a short time, but it is my opinion, not that I am an authority on anything, but for me, this is what I believe. I believe that spirits that who incarnate during this life time, are close allies in the spirit world and it was agreed that this tragedy would help the one who has lost a young loved one, the human experience of loss and grief like no other. Now you have insight that you have never had before. My spirit is the one who is here for the human experiences so that my spirit will gain insight that is carried forth into the spirits evolution. A baby or child that dies young, in my belief, has been close to you for centuries. Just a thought. Love you K.

Oh wow I am sorry dear. *big fuzzy healing hugs*<br />
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Thank you sunshine for sharing that, it means very much *teary eyes and smile * <br />
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If it wasn't for solidarity, I'd be even more loco o_O ...

yes'm many years ago.. my heart goes out to you. and am still in awe at your poem.. beautiful and tragic.

dear sunny, did you loose a baby too? <br />
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thank you for your comment!

wonderful spirited and emotional poem.. rate up fo sho. and I know this feelin believe it or not.. and I feel they're up in the heavens waiting just a minute for us to catch up with them. (((((hugs)))))

i am so very sorry rickbrat for your loss, <br />
may you find some meaning and peace in.<br />
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take care of yourself.

maybe our baby will find my wife and she will take care ofit as we could never have kids and she was killed at age 19

Thank you for commenting, i really like the 'i am so full of love' part a lot :D!!<br />
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