I Have a Boyfriend But Want Someone Else
I've been unhappy in my relationship for some time now and probably the main reason we're still together is because we live together, which makes breaking up so much harder. I love him so much as a person that breaking up would be devastating right now. We're working on things and hoping to make it work. We need to bring back the passion.
In some ways it's getting better, but he's so busy working that I hardly see him. When I do see him, he is either sleeping, too tired to talk straight, or running out the door. I don't get very much attention from him and I feel lonely.
There's a guy at work that I find myself fantasizing about. We get along amazingly well considering we only met within the past month. We have lots in common and whenever we talk there are moments where we'll just sort of look at each other and smile without saying anything. I suspect that he likes me too, but he is also seeing someone. The chance of anything happening between us is low because I don't want to cheat on my boyfriend plus I wouldn't feel right stealing another girl's boyfriend. But the attraction is definately there, and I feel guilty because of it. I've been fantasizing about him and I feel excited about going into work because I get to see him there.
I was hoping to spend more time with my boyfriend this weekend but he decided to pick up a shift on Sunday even though I told him I wanted to spend time with him that day. It upsets me because I need to focus my attention on him instead of the other guy. He says he's working all the time for us, so that we can afford to go on a trip somewhere together and so we can afford better things and have a better life. I appreciate the thought but I miss seeing him. Maybe I just like this guy at work because I get attention from him. I don't know.
Thanks for reading my ramblings.
In some ways it's getting better, but he's so busy working that I hardly see him. When I do see him, he is either sleeping, too tired to talk straight, or running out the door. I don't get very much attention from him and I feel lonely.
There's a guy at work that I find myself fantasizing about. We get along amazingly well considering we only met within the past month. We have lots in common and whenever we talk there are moments where we'll just sort of look at each other and smile without saying anything. I suspect that he likes me too, but he is also seeing someone. The chance of anything happening between us is low because I don't want to cheat on my boyfriend plus I wouldn't feel right stealing another girl's boyfriend. But the attraction is definately there, and I feel guilty because of it. I've been fantasizing about him and I feel excited about going into work because I get to see him there.
I was hoping to spend more time with my boyfriend this weekend but he decided to pick up a shift on Sunday even though I told him I wanted to spend time with him that day. It upsets me because I need to focus my attention on him instead of the other guy. He says he's working all the time for us, so that we can afford to go on a trip somewhere together and so we can afford better things and have a better life. I appreciate the thought but I miss seeing him. Maybe I just like this guy at work because I get attention from him. I don't know.
Thanks for reading my ramblings.
By:
Sunburst
Age:
22-25
