Unfathomable

I think I definitely used to love my boyfriend. When we got together I was so happy, and we've got past the year barrier now. Maybe it's because I'm getting bored of the same kissing and cuddling? But I don't think I'm ready for much more right now.

He's really cute, in the way he looks and the things he says, and sometimes he just makes me stop and stare at his lovely, kind face. But other times he's way too clingy. Sometimes he pins me down so I can't get his tongue out of my mouth, or his hands off my body. He only wants that sort of stuff, whereas I want a soulmate, someone who will just do normal stuff like talk to me, rather than try and get his hands down my pants. But I can't tell him I don't want him any more. Because he's fragile in his own way, and I love his family like my own.

This other guy I've known for a few years, and at first it was a bit of an awkward friendship, because he's the year younger than me. I had a crush on him for a bit but we didn't really talk. He got a girlfriend for a bit, and I can't say I wasn't a bit jealous. Our friendship began to grow as we hung out more. When he split up I was interested, but didn't pursue the subject. I don't seem to be happy when I'm with my boyfriend but he makes me laugh, and feel good. And he's even started texting me.
Cora777 Cora777
18-21, F
Sep 16, 2012