Feeling lonely without my pilot boyfriend
My American Boyfriend is a pilot and he has choosen voluntary to join the army for twice 4 months to go on mission to Iraq. Monday february 9th he will depart from USA to there. It is horrible for me. I am dutch, life in the Netherlands and we already are together for 9 monts, it is a distance relationship. My boyfriend is not so talkative and he doesn't like to send email and to call. I don't know how we have to survive these first 4 months...How many times a month or a week is it normal to call?? I want to call once a twice a week...Can I tell him he has to do that or I just have to wait for the moments he will call me??I am afraid we won't call me than every week and I think I can't force him...What is normal? Furthermore, most of my friends and family doesn't understand my relationship and I feel lonely in my situation..(I have some friends and some family members who understand me) Last week I cried a lot..I cannot sleep well anymore, don't want to see a lot of friends, I am sitting alone in my appartment and do only all the things what I have to do and see only my best friends..why am I in love with my special Justin in a distance relationship..we saw each other now in 9 months 4 weeks..but we feel so close to each other..the love of my life..I am afraid there will happen something worse there. He said to me he is not able to tell me what kind of flying he has to do..I hate it...It stresses me...makes me tired and sad don't know what he has to do...Do you all don't know what your boyfriends are doing?? is this because my boyfriend is a pilot?? is it normal not to know it?? He is also looking forward to go there and he doesn't understand on deeper level that it is for me difficult. I am scared for the moment to see him again, because I think this mission will change his life....I know I have to be strong and I am strong. I love him with all my heart, I want a future with him. My dear Boyfriend, I think he is also afraid to be in a relationship, he is used to do everything on his own..so that is also an other point that is difficult..I let him free to do what he wants, but I want to life with him in 1,5 year. Does someone have advice for me??? I am so insecure and I don't want to ask him the whole time stupid questions or be sad on the phone or skype...He also don't need so much contact as I need...does someone know if our boyfriend can call for cheap and if they can call privately and if they have internet acces in their rooms??? Can we call them??
How do I have to coop with this?? I would like it to have contact with girls who are in the same situation, to mail..and maybe go on skype..my email is: firstname.lastname@example.org. my skype is evelien60 Every day I hope it is already June and I can see him....and than i still don't know if he is busy with flying in usa or other countries the 3 months he doesn't have to serve in Iraq. His parents also don't know of us because they are oldfasioned in some cases..and I think not so openminded..I would like it they know about us..His brother will marry in June and I know already the chance is very big I cannot be there.. I hope you all have some advice for me..I love him and it is very special if we are together..we are ment for each other...it is like a fairytale..we've met in Surinam april 30th 2008. kus Eef