What Am I Doing With My Life?
Today is Easter!!! Happy easter to everyone that reads this. Well today has been one of those days. I just moved from Fresno Ca to San Jose for a job that I am not really caring for. I have been at this job since Nov and I am having a hard time. I am feeling really depressed lately nothing seems to be going my way. I moved out from paying $400 dollar rent with my best friend that I have lived with for 5 years to living with my 83 year old grandmother that is up my butt about everything. I have lived with her Since Nov and still can't afford anything. My boyfriend is going to be deployed, i live with my grandma and I have no friends there but one girl that her mom has cancer and she can not get a place with me and rent there is so high. I can only afford 800 and I can only find a studio for 895 and my parents will not help me out like they did for my sister i just dont get it. None of my other sisters had to live with grandma. I am trying to think at least i have a job and everything and a place over my head in this economy but I just am so unhappy where i am. I am so frusterated with my parents it just really bothers me that they are just so un fair. I hate when they are like this. I pray about it all the time that I wish that I could just get along with them but thne they start in on everything with my attitude to my relationship with david and how they think it is stuiped that I limit myself to something like this. I really love him so much and I just want to be happy again.