I Dont Know What To Think
So if any of you guys have read my stories, you know me and my boyfriend were having some problems before he deployed as well as the first few months of his deployment. Since then, things have slowly started to get better. He calls a little more often. But he wont say I love you or call me baby. After a lot of pushing, he finally said why. He said its because his friends that had girls back home told them I love you and made plans to see them have since broken up. So in his mind, if he says I love you, we are going to break up. Really? Like I can see where he is coming from, but is that a real reason or just an excuse? He has NEVER had a problem saying it before. However, he said without actually saying it, he definitely still feels it. He just wont say it. He also said that if I am here waiting for him when he gets back (9 months) we will for sure be together no matter what. So I guess thats a good thing...He is also not coming home for his R&R. Before he left (when things were still good) he said he was going to come back on his leave and propose. He had the whole thing planned out and was so excited for it. But now since he isnt coming back, that obviously isnt going to happen. Is this too a bad sign? Idk. He said he is just distancing himself from me just in case I find someone else (which isnt going to happen) because then he wont be as upset. I have absolutely no problem waiting for him as long as I know I am waiting for something. What if he comes back and things dont go back to normal? Is it stupid of me to wait 9 months on the hopes that he will come back and be the old person again?