My boyfriend can be the greatest.....but he can also be the worst. He cycles through moods so swiftly sometimes, that it's hard for me to keep up. He's finally gotten into counseling, but I'm still looking for results.
We've been together for almost 3 years. He is the love of my life. I know the pain that his disorder has caused me so I can only imagine the pain that it causes him. When he goes into his 'fit', he can hurt me so deep with his words. I just do my best to look beyond the outside of him and to remember who he is inside.
He never knows from one day to the next how he's going to feel. I watched him cry. I watched him in frustration and anger. I watched him in good spirits. Normal emotions....yes....but with a bipolar there is no rhyme or reason for the mood changes. He can be sad or mad or whatever and he doesn't even know why. Sometimes he doesn't go out at all, other times he's out all the time.
I do know that it takes a very strong person to be in a relationship with someone with bipolar. I believe I'm strong, but many, many times I've thought about giving up. I hope I never have to. But I can't make any promises.
It's one thing if the bipolar seeks help, but it's totally something else if they just want to continue on the way they are. Because this disease hurts people, it hurts relationships, it hurts children, bipolar hurts everyone and everything it comes into contact with if left untreated!!