Love & Hate
Being in a relationship with a Bipolar is painful. Things get really bad and I leave and then he convinces me that if I come back that it'll be better.
(That hasn't been true yet)
I have to admit I miss him when I'm gone. Love is not supposed to be this hard. But this is HARD. He loves me one day and then he acts like he can't stand me the next.
I asked him last night if he knew how hard that was for me and he said, yes I do know because that's how I feel about myself. One day I love myself and my life and the next day I hate everything and wish I would just die.
That is sooooo sad. He does go to therapy and he is on meds but sometimes they don't help. I can't just leave him because I know it's a medical sickness and I truly love him with all my heart.
I wish I could take his pain away and make him happy but I can't. I just keep praying that something the doctors do will make his quality of life better which will in turn improve mine.