Reminiscing About My First Love

We were both in our late teens when we first met. I remember we would meet in the hallway and talk to each other. Before we became friends he walked me all the way home from school. But we had to caught 2 buses to get to where I lived. It was a cold winter's day and it was a week before the Christmas holidays. That night I would be boarding a plane with my Dad to fly out to visit my grandparents. As we stood there talking I remember playing with the snow with my foot. He was so charming and sweet he wanted to write me letters while I was gone. When I returned our relationship soon become romantic after he gave me a friendship ring and asked me if I wanted to go steady with him. I gladly accepted his offer.

But as the months went by we became more in love with each other. I felt it was so very sweet of him when he came to visit me while I was in the hospital after my major surgery I had on my lung. It wasn't until after we first made love, but still he seemed so caring and loving after making me a hand-made necklace. We seem to be inseparable we didn't go anywhere without each other. And suddenly things began to change in our relationship we began having huge fights and fighting in the stairway in high school where we both attended. After one huge argument I remember going down to meet him in the parking lot after school. He had already left he just drove off and left me behind. I felt so angry and hurt, but at the same time my parents never approved of him, because he was a different color and race.

 It was a year later when he threatened to end our serious relationship. I felt so heart broken and wanted to end my life, but after taking a hand full of pills I got really scared. I was scared of dying and didn't want to die just because this guy wanted to break-up with me. And now many years later I still have a broken heart.  I guess my broken heart never got  mended.
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2 Responses Oct 17, 2010

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