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Nt Only My Heart....but M Also Broken!

my bf brokeup wid me few days ago....it was lik a part of me,my heart was ripped away frm me.i asked him d reason,he said "we dont hav a future,his parents wud nvr agree 4 me" n d other reason he said-"m nt a virgin!"........i cudnt blve ma ears!he said he lost his virginity 2 his frnd's sister n said i'll find sme1 else bttr dan hm......bt i knw him very well.He's nt a virgin???its bullshit!i knw its a lie so dat i wud leave hm n forgt him easily........i knw hw loyal he hs been 2 me all dis tim throughout our relatnshp..........i still remembr d way he loookd at me...all i cud c in his eyes was love...nothin else.....he cared 4 me....bt suddenly dis.......m definitely broken!no one has d right 2 decide my lyf n nt evn him!bt he did it!he loved me so much....i love hm so mch bt God knws y exactly he's doin all dis?!i still love hm n i hav no idea hw 2 4get him...wat 2 do......we cud hav tried in future 2 mak his parents agree.....bt he was 2oo coward 2 do dat!i fell so silly dat i m still in lv wid hm...loved him crazy wid all my heart n tried 2 gv hm wat he wanted 2 see in hs lyfpartner bt all dat didnt wrk out.......i cant say i dnt care wat he does in future or dat i hate him...i jst cant!still nights go by cryin sheddin tears in hs thoughts askin 2 god ,2 myself wat went wrong...y all dis.......still no answer!many questns r dere in my mind dt i kw wud nvr b answerd ............i wanna mve on bt dont knw hw.....i loved him very much.....i cn feel d pain ....my heart weeps 4 hm,......mind says move on...heart says hang on!!!....nw smetimes i think dat is dis really love or jst attractn?infatuatn??did he evr loved me.......wen i ask dis q 2 my self i only get confusin answers...hrt says "yes".....mind says"its jst attrctn!u hv 2 n u'll move on!"whom 2 belv n whom nt 2........?we broke up d 5th tim...yes it sounds crazy.......bt nw i thnk dis is d last one!i cnt hndle anothr brk-up wid hm!i'll go psycho!i'm nvr gonna let hm entr my lyf once again!cuz i dont knw wen again he'll chicken out n leave me!dat tim m sure 2 kill hm!!!i m jst undergoin mood swings.......one tim m lovin hm cryin 4 hm...nother instnt m cursin hm.......n yet nothr tim scoldin hm........ dnt knw wat 2 do.......jst wanna 4get him........jst wanna 4get times spent wid hm.......jst wanna move on n liv lyf happily!!!once again!!!
Daizy04 Daizy04 18-21 1 Response May 26, 2011

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