I Feel Lost

You know what I do hate? The fact that I can never date you, that I’ll never be able to hold your hand again, hug you, or see you smile about us again. I’ll never be able to say “Hey Kaelie, I like you a lot.” And get back “I like you too Griffin :)”. And it hurts, it hurts a lot. I know we’re young, and I’m sure we’ll both find our “someone else”. But I’m not sure I wanted to, you were perfect for me, you made me laugh and we had amazing times together. I didn’t want it to end like this, I wanted to spend the summer with you, and be able to talk to you without these short bursts of conversations. I wanted to make you happy for months to come, and when I did have to leave, I didn’t know if we would part ways not because there was something wrong but just because there was distance, or simply take a break till next summer. But that wasn’t as important to me as my time with you now was. I used to know what was on your mind, be able to ask if you were okay and get an answer. But now, now I don’t even know what’s on your mind, and I far less doubt you’ll ever tell me. I know you said it isn’t me and that I am “fantastic” however you just can’t do it right now, but I still can’t help but wonder if it is something I did that triggered this. This last week started with something bad, but it wasn’t horrible, and we both perked up feeling better within a few hours. However it seemed like that was the day that you no longer wanted anything to do with me, and no matter what you say in the lines of how it is really just not your readiness to date, I still wonder had I done something differently, if I could still be holding your hand right now. I miss you, and I’m sorry.
Glmeyer Glmeyer
18-21, M
3 Responses May 21, 2012

I can relate to how your feeling right now.<br />
You must know if she isn't feeling the same way,time to let her go,you did the best you could at that time.<br />
There's someone out there that's going to give you the love you need.<br />
Best wishes

Thanks for the advice :)<br />
I'm sure things will look up, it certainly helps to get myself out here.

Chin up! shoulders back. splash cold water on your face and look at the guy that can love her that way. That's you, man. with a heart like that, she'll be just a fond memory soon. be strong.