This Is The Once Place I Can Vent...I lost the love of my life. She was just truly amazing, everything i could have ever asked for. I keep pushing and pushing and i dont realize how badly i truly do need her until its too late.
We were together almost 1 year 8 months, and we broke up. It sucks so bad. I really dont know what to do. I didnt just lost my lover, she was the one source of my true happiness. My light through this dark life of mine. I really dont know what i will do without her. I want to die. I really dont know what else to do. I be strong, i have faith she'll come back. But all my hope is gone. I just know i'm probably going to die alone.
Yea, i'm only 15. But dont tell me what i feel, i know this is love. i've never even come close to feeling this way before. We always had talked about our future after high-school, how we were going to get married and settle down. Everything in our relationship was amazing. We got called cute all the time.
The only few things that were problems: Trust, Seeing each other, and Fighting.
It sucks, because there is nothing in this world i want more than her. Now she wont even talk to me, she leaves me all alone and all i do is think about her. Im driving myself insane and i just need help. No one is ever there for me. I have no one i can talk to. She was the only one i could open up to, and now she is gone and now i have no one. I am not like most guys, i know a lot of people say that, but i really believe im not.
I tried as hard as i could to keep her happy, and nothing was still ever enough. i could talk to her about anything in the world and know she would help me the best she could. I really just want her back, someone to call my own. Someone to cuddle. someone to make me happy. thats what she was to me, she was really my world and i care about her more than anything.
If i could get any advice at all on how to get her back, i would really appreciate it. I really dont know what else to do, i dont want to let go.
I dont know where else to turn...
Thank you for your support...