How My Heart Keeps Getting Broken

I've had my heart broken several times and it seems that every time that I find someone that I feel like I can trust, they just stomp on my heart like its nothing. I recently had my heart broken by my boyfriend of 4 years. For the past 4 years its been back and forth with him and thru it all I've stayed with him and loved him even when it seemed like he didn't want me because I believe that he's the one for me and that he's an awesome man. I've caught him telling people horrible things about me and also I've caught him talking to numerous girls including ex girlfriends and thru it all everytime he said sorry i've forgiven him, but today idk what's different but this hurts more than anything in the past, I feel like i've been used for years. I dont know how to explain everything all I can say is that it hurts more than anything in the world.
cbansa cbansa
18-21, F
1 Response Aug 31, 2012

after my ex left me, he told huge lies about me to others to make himself look good, found out he did the same when we were together, he would lie alot and flirt with other girls, i forgave him. I still love him and dont hold those things against him. But it does hurt to know they could do things like that. you can msg me anytime if you need xx