B-r-o-k-e-n.

I used to think that people who got stuck on being broken where a bunch of drama queens.
UNTIL. I got my fair share of reality.

He was my perfect match.
But unfortunately, we didn't make it through the so called forever crap.
I guess at some point, I was naive enough to think that the love we have for each other is enough to make the relationship last.

I never really told anyone why we broke up, Because I myself don't even understand what took place.

But we did tried to work it out though, The thing is, trying to force everything to be OK is like trying to solve a puzzle blindfolded. And it came to the point that holding on to each other made both of us feel miserable. So eventually we decided to part ways.

And i was literally shattered.
It's been a year yet, I haven't seemed to be over it.
I was still as broken as i have been a year ago.

And for him?
Well, he was able to moved on.
And did I mention that he was married now?

The weird part is, I still visit his facebook profile.
Why?
I guess i wanted to get used to the pain. To somehow, feel numb about everything.


Sadly , The pain was still there, no matter what I do.
He still haunts me.

I'm afraid that I wouldn't be able to love someone as much as i loved him. (that I'll be stuck in this situation forever).

shizzLe164 shizzLe164
22-25, F
8 Responses Sep 11, 2012

hmmmmmmm.....

hmmm???

ncoow shizzy.haha i prefer shizzy mre than shizzle...it was nyc reading ur broken hearted story.@last there is some1 out there like me(taking time to get over guys).

thanks. I never really thought someone else have gone through this crap until i have posted this story. Oh, well.. I hope things get better for you. :)

I can understand what your going through because even i have sailed through the same boat.. but with time things will heal & its pointless thinking about people who dont respect your feelings... In my case my guy cheated over me sleeping with other girls & left me because i refused to have physical relation with him... he never respected the love i hd for him & now after 7 years he mails me saying that he wants me back... but let him go to hell... i have moved on :) & i am happy now.. hope you over come this feeling soon :) take care

thanks. I'm sorry to hear about your struggle though, that must have felt horrible. But at least your happy now., :)

I can understand what your going through because even i have sailed through the same boat.. but with time things will heal & its pointless thinking about people who dont respect your feelings... In my case my guy cheated over me sleeping with other girls & left me because i refused to have physical relation with him... he never respected the love i hd for him & now after 7 years he mails me saying that he wants me back... but let him go to hell... i have moved on :) & i am happy now.. hope you over come this feeling soon :) take care

My relationship ended 5 years ago and I still cannot believe it, I still go to his facebook account to see what he is doing. All I can say it does get better, all of a sudden like the process of grieving a small piece of you starts to come back and eventually you will I hope find someone else who will love you for you.... I wish you well

thanks.. I hope you do too.. :)

Thank you very much :)

your story is similar to mine in a sence. Its normal for u to still hurt, its almost a year for me too, and i hurt every day. I understand the profile thing i do it too, its like an obsessive, need to kno how they are or what they have been up to. it is harmless, but try to do it less and less, it is hard to restrain urself but u can do it. i thought that i would never be able to love somone again. But i have loved twice since then, one being i feel in love. but neither of those worked out either. But i still love my 1st ex from a yr ago more than anyone. We may never be able to love anyone else more than them. But i believe we could eventually love another just the same amount. Hold in there, it might just be taking a while to feel any better or be able to move on, because he moved on so quickly. hugs anytime u need talk msg me x

i try to fight the urge to check his profile, Sometimes i succeed other times,no.
But thank you really. :)
Its nice to know that someone else have already been through this situation and was able to overcome it. It is well appreciated. :)

sorry for your pain, it is often hard to get over a lost love. but when you keep on revisiting the past you refuse to allow your heart to heal. I hope that one day you too can put this pain behind you and move on as well. ((hugs))

thanks. :)

Maybe you have read some of my stories, if so then you know we have been through the same thing, and we're alone in feeling it. <br />
I guess it's a waste of time trying to make sense of it.

i guess you're right..