I Dont Know Anymore

i cried so much..
i dont know if its love..
i keep hearing these sad songs..
its going to be a month...
Since ive been without him...
i Dont know how but..
its like i try 2 move on..
but i cant..
somethings holding me back..
and when we speak..
it sounds like he's really happy...
i dont want to hold him back at all..
im really young.. so im not sure if im in love..

i dont know what to do....
its hard to explain but i dont know..
i miss him one minute... the next.. i dont ...
then it repeats..
i cant stand seeing him..
but i miss all the days we speak..
its feels really weird..
all my friends are telling me he's not worth it..
but i rather risk everything and find out if he is..
instead of being Heartbroken and lonely..
my friends say he hurt me to many times..
im better off without him..
but i dont want to believe that...

i dont know anymore im really hurt... its been 1 MONTH ALREADY... soon we make a Year knowing eachother..and we just recently started speaking again as friends....then he said he still loves me...and then at the end the conversation ended with... i just want to be friends... im really hurt i actually cried a little while we were talking on the computer... and i miss him .. i want to see him... i want him to hold me again... he understands me.. he completes me.. theres no other.. i miss him....
SourLove SourLove
18-21, F
3 Responses May 10, 2007

Stop speaking to him Sweetheart. My sons mom left me when I had cancer and we were together for 12 years. It broke my heart so bad that I cannot talk to her, I would cry my eyes out. It does get better with time and someone as sweet and special as you WILL find a man who will cherish you. When you find that person, cherish him back. You will be happy again!

I know its hard right now but just try to be strong. It sounds like he's giving you mixed signals. Try to stop calling him & not answer when he calls you. It will get easier with time. I promise!

The EXACT thing is happening to me. Except he won't even talk to me as a friend anymore. He already likes other girls, and hates me even saying Hi because I annoy him. I would give anything to have him back even if he did treat me badly. I love him so much, and I know how you feel.