All my life the pivitol men in my life seem to dissappoint me, abandon me and hurt me.......everytime I've managed to find the strength to pick myself back up, dust myself off and find hope for the next relationship. The hope that someday I will find a man who loves me and will always be there for me. Always doing his best and we will be there for one another. I truly believe I deserve this. I want so much to break this awfully dissappointing heartbreak that keeps playing itself over and over. Sometimes I forget that it's not my fault that men haven't been reliable in my life. I have learned that through it all the ones talk the most break my heart the deepest.Talk is cheap, those whose actions speak louder than words earn my respect. I wish I could meet someone who I could put my walls down for but I will always remember to defend myself no matter how much I think I love him.....tomorrow is destined to come. What will it bring?