I Saw Him Today, For The First Time In Months..

As I walk out of school today, I was so excited to just go home. Finally, the long school day was over...I seriously had absolutely no cares in the world...but as I made my way to the car, there he was. Standing there, with his curly brown hair, big beautiful brown eyes, black baggy sweater, gray sweatpants, and a huge smile on his face, with his friends in the parking lot. I felt my face get hot, and a lump growing bigger in my throat. I burried my face in my sweater, praying to God he wouldn't see me. He doesn't even go to my school anymore, so why was he there? The feeling of heartbreak never really hit me until I saw him at that very moment. (I guess it never truly hit me, based on the fact he broke up with me via-text approximently eight months prior and I haven't seen or heard from him since then) Although those eight months have gone by super quick, there hasn't been a day I haven't thought about him. He was my everything. I loved him. Ha, who am I kidding? I still do. He was my first and only real boyfriend. January 15 of this year would have be two years. But now, he's happy with someone else. Just the thought of him kissing another girl is killing me. I've cried so many tears over this boy...but why? He doesn't even care about me anymore. For God's sake, he won't even accept my friend request on Facebook. My heart is shattering right now, I feel an empty void in my chest, all because of today. Today, of all days. I just want this pain to stop, I wish there was some way I could tell him I still, and always will, love him.
singingalone singingalone
18-21, F
1 Response Jan 9, 2013

I am older then you also...You will always remember your first love and heartbreak. But it will get better as time goes by. You are gonna be just fine and stronger for what you have gone through.