Good Bye - Part 2

So it's been a month since I emailed you and said good bye.

I haven't heard from you or seen you online at all. Not a peep. I think you're avoiding me.

It makes me sad. I guess I was hoping you would email me back and say something...anything...You've told me several times you didn't want our friendship to end. Seems like you are letting it go pretty easily. Knowing you, you probably think that it's what I want...it's not, it's what you want.

Someone did try to call me but the number came up weird on my phone. I looked it up and some people said it was a skype to cell call, was it you? I couldn't answer because I was at work. I doubt it was, why wouldn't you just email me?

I still miss you...I still know your work schedule and rotation. Hopefully, one day I will forget. It doesn't hurt as much as it did but it still does.

I've thought about sending you a message but resisted. Today, I am so close to sending you an "I miss you message" but then I would just feel that much more stupid. What do you care anyways? You haven't even reached out to me.

I feel like a fool. Over 6 years...I've replayed our conversations in my head. I let you in, I told you everything. You know me better than I know myself...how did I not see? I'm usually so good at discerning these things. Did things change in the last 6 months or was it all a lie. Was it something I did?

I guess I'll never know....