When Your Heart Is Bleeding DryDear Friends,
Tonight, I guess, will be one of those nights when sleeping is impossible. My heart is bleeding dry. My eyes are already drained with tears and even if I want to cry, the tears will not fall anymore. I am tired yet I am hurting. Tonight I learned that he is courting another girl. He even went to her house. One thing that he never did when we were still in a relationship. My close friend told me that when the girl asked him why we broke up, he said it was because I have no time for him.
And boy was that painful. Why does he have to shift the blame on me? How can that be when my world was spinning around him. When I have given him all my free time and have sometimes sacrificed my family outings. But its water over the dam now. A few hours ago, I cared and got hurt with his lies. I was crying. It was so painful. But now, I feel angry. He can tell any girl that Im a fat geek of a teacher. I could not really care less now. All I know was that he never deserved my respect, more so my love. I dont know what's going to happen tomorrow. I dont know how much pain I had to endure. But I know deep inside is my soul crying that I should fight this. It was not fair. For six months it never was. Now I have to fight for my happiness.
If you have experienced this already, tell me how you did it. Tell me what kept you sane. Please share to me how you went through it all. Im really tired at this point in time. And im Hurt. But Im tired of me being hurt. Please help me.
brbarbie 22-25, F 2 Responses 0 Jan 21, 2013