When Your Heart Is Bleeding Dry

Dear Friends,

Tonight, I guess, will be one of those nights when sleeping is impossible. My heart is bleeding dry. My eyes are already drained with tears and even if I want to cry, the tears will not fall anymore. I am tired yet I am hurting. Tonight I learned that he is courting another girl. He even went to her house. One thing that he never did when we were still in a relationship. My close friend told me that when the girl asked him why we broke up, he said it was because I have no time for him.

And boy was that painful. Why does he have to shift the blame on me? How can that be when my world was spinning around him. When I have given him all my free time and have sometimes sacrificed my family outings. But its water over the dam now. A few hours ago, I cared and got hurt with his lies. I was crying. It was so painful. But now, I feel angry. He can tell any girl that Im a fat geek of a teacher. I could not really care less now. All I know was that he never deserved my respect, more so my love. I dont know what's going to happen tomorrow. I dont know how much pain I had to endure. But I know deep inside is my soul crying that I should fight this. It was not fair. For six months it never was. Now I have to fight for my happiness.

If you have experienced this already, tell me how you did it. Tell me what kept you sane. Please share to me how you went through it all. Im really tired at this point in time. And im Hurt. But Im tired of me being hurt. Please help me.
brbarbie brbarbie
22-25, F
2 Responses Jan 21, 2013

Very sorry for all your hurt. I went through a break-up somewhat recently too and just learned yesterday he's dating someone new. My only suggestion is to stay busy if you can. Go out with family or friends or join a group. When you aren't busy it gives your mind time to drift over to the memories, and that's not always easy. Take the time you need to grieve, but also try to stay busy. Sending you hugs and wishing you well!

thank you very much! that I will do. =)

I recently went through a break up. Sometimes what is the right thing to do isn't always the easiest. Even if you don't feel like it, sometimes you need to force yourself to do things that will help you, like going out with a friend or spending time simply distracting yourself from the breakup. But the truth is, you need to allow yourself to grieve. It is the best way to help yourself move on. There are better things in the future. You are strong, smart, and beautiful! Keep moving and this too, shall pass.

Much love.

thank you for your kind words. much appreciated. i will keep on reading the comments here to remind me that there is so much more to life.

You're welcome. There really is. (: