Never Get Over It.....

I was 18 when I fell in love with you. You said you loved me too. You got me pregnant, said you'd never leave or do anything to hurt me. Why did you lie? Why did you cheat on me while I was pregnant? Why did you not show up to the hospital when my heart was failing after we lost the baby? Is she really that much better than me? Better than the girl who carried your beautiful son? Better than the girl who lost friends because she believed you over her friends when they tried to tell me you were scum? I guess I wasn't good enough for you. Its been almost a year and I'm still not over you and the loss of our son. The loss of our son I will never get over but I pray to God every night to help me get over you. I've had guys want to be with me and love me but I can't let them in because of what you did to me. You scarred me for life. I don't trust men anymore because of what you did. I hope you and the girl you are with now (the one you cheated on me with and got pregnant) are happy honestly I do but I wish you could feel the pain that I feel.
beautifullybrokengirl beautifullybrokengirl
18-21, F
2 Responses Jan 21, 2013

Now that your heart is broken. You can discard those pesky feelings of love and caring and just have fun for yourself.

I am sorry to hear such a painful story. I prayed for you and I wish you the best. Try to open up to people. Don't draw away from people. We need relationships and as far as a man for you goes, the right one will come along and when he does, it will work out.

Much love.

Thank you for praying for me. Its hard for me to not draw away from people now. Its hard to overcome and obstacle like that.

It's hard for me too. I realized though that sometimes even if it scares me a little or if I just don't feel like it, I'm glad to talk openly to people. It won't be easy at first of course, but it will get easier over time and with practice.