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I Have a Broken Heart

I'M Happy I Hurt No More...And Sad

By: deleted
Written on February 1st, 2013
    The seemingly unending ache had subsided a couple of months ago. I can turn on the TV without her name popping up on every channel. I can listen to the radio with no mention of her hometown. I can drive down the road and no longer be surrounded by cars all the same as hers.
     I know most of you know what I am talking about and for those who are still suffering with heartache, I am sure you would trade places with me in an instant. Quite frankly, I would NOT trade places with you, because this is where I want to be, but I do feel some sort of disappointment or sadness that I no longer love her.
     I don't know if I'm feeling that bit of sadness over her specifically or that I am not in love with someone or that maybe I miss her at times. What I do know is that I was in love and I love being in love. I loved being in love with her. I had once said that I would do it all over again, but now I do not feel that way.
     I am relieved of the pain, but I miss the love. Yes, it is likely I will find love again, but it is far more likely love will find me.
By: deleted
Age: 26-30
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6 responses
  • Aikenoo
    Aikenoo

    It's okay, you have just moved on. Time to look for another one maybe.

    Feb 3
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  • vivirparahoy
    vivirparahoy

    So someday, I will stop wondering will he love me? He is emotionally abusive yet I cannot bring myself to leave him. Should I?

    Feb 3
    2 likes
  • charandrea
    charandrea

    Your words give me hope that some day this pain, heartache, obsession of thinking about them every minute and wondering 'why' will subside...i am happy for you and since you found the strength for this you will find the strength to find love again..

    Feb 2
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    • charandrea
      charandrea

      Just want to let you know that i really needed to hear this today.. the pain is worse this morning.. maybe its because when i was driving to work this morning all of a sudden i realised he was in the car infront of me, the usuall thing that happened before was he would call or i would call him but not today.. i found the strength not to dial his number... 'strength'?? maybe not so strong as i am fighting back the tears right now... unsuccesfully...Thank you again for your comforting words that i read over and over again wanting so badly to beleive that someone understands the pain..x

      Feb 4
      1 like
  • Tootsiepops
    Tootsiepops

    I so agree, that's exactly right! In order to love, we need to make ourselves vulnerable. Have an open heart and welcome everything that comes with falling in love. I love being in love. It hasn't happened often but have been lucky enough to have said it was reciprocated.I know some people who have never experienced love before and they are approaching mid life. Some say love and being in a relationship is overrated, but I don't think so at all.

    Feb 1
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  • Tootsiepops
    Tootsiepops

    I would love to be in your shoes right now, I once was in your shoes from a previous relationship, so I know it will happen to me too with this one. It's only been a month. I used to love Valentine's day, now it's Feb 1st and I have to go through the store looking at all the hearts. My heart breaks when I hear my favorite song that he turned me on to. I see his car all the time, but its not him driving it. I see his favorite store he loved, but hes not in it. I see his favorite food he loved and hes not eating it. This can be pure torture even though you try to keep yourself occupied.

    I think you hit the nail on the head when you say is it her you miss specifically or is it being in love with someone. I say at least for me, it is both.

    Feb 1
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