I Just Don't Know How Long It Takes to Mend

I know I am not alone - everyone has had this at one time or another.

I wish that I had no heart - no emotions - than to feel this.

I really loved you .. I trusted you ... and I'm back to exactly where I was before.

I am too scared to love anymore.  I can't even love myself now ...

I am hurt

I am angry

and damn it I am pissed at you

I have tried to fake it until i can love myself -- and I can't. I quit.

MizzBlue72 MizzBlue72
36-40, F
6 Responses Feb 22, 2009

Frostbear I agree with you - 100%.

Hi MizzBlue! I know where you are coming from. Felt that pain myself recently. I hope you are ok. And it isn't just the men. lol. People in general i think just don't handle things well anymore. Computers have taken the social skills away that you learn from face to face. It is just so easy to unplug. Anyway, I hope you feel better soon.

Thanks broke. It's gotten a little better - I still feel extremely hurt and let down, but I'm getting over it. <br />
If I keep relationships (all of my relationships) at a superficial level, I'm OK today. I don't hurt. But when friends start talking about the hard parts - feelings, love, etc. I can't do it - I just hurt too much. <br />
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Thanks for sharing this. I wish you weren't feeling this either. But In my situation, at least it was a lesson learned. It really makes me look at men a little different. And always makes me think what are they hiding and what do they want from me?? Someday this may get better - but maybe not.

It makes you wish you had never met that person huh? They say it is better to have loved and lost then never to have loved at all. I say bull! I wish I could go back to how I felt before my heart was broken. <br />
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Just wanted to let you know that I feel your pain.

Thanks newdaydog =]

Take another lover. That one was the pits. There are loving, sensual, empathetic men out there. Don't quit!