My Heart Is Torn Apart

My best friend came into my marriage claiming she was in love with my husband AND me. She was the closest thing I had ever had to a sister, truly my best friend. We had a nice relationship, but then things turned bad.

Now, she and my husband are in love. They had an emotional and physical affair behind my back.

I have been betrayed by my best friend, my lover, my sister, the woman who was supposed to love me. The woman who gave me the taste of happiness.

I have been betrayed by my best friend, my lover, my husband, the man who was supposed to love me. The man who gave me my life, my joy. The man who vowed to be with me forever.

Now, she wants him only. She has hurt me so badly. I don't know what to do. My heart is in so many pieces and I don't even want to live anymore. I have no real reason to go on. He says he wants to try and give me the chance I want, but he is not in love with me. He won't cut ties with her. She won't stop manipulating him.

I see his life and where it's headed with her, and I'm worried for him. I see my life and where it's headed without him, and I don't see any light or point to it.

Surujen Surujen
31-35, F
3 Responses Feb 25, 2009

Surujen, I know it hurts terribly and you are feeling like it's the end of the world for you, but it isn't. So many have second marraiges and live happily ever after. I know you probably don't want to hear that right now because it's too soon and the pain is too deep. But in time hun, things will change, they really will. Take one day at a time or one hour or even one minute at a time if thats what it takes to get through this. You can PM me if you need to talk. People are here for you. Ok? You hang in there and take care.

Ha ha ha...cheate is trying to pick you up!!!

Baby, you have to worry about yourself. I am in a similar situation except my husband is having an affair with a stranger. He told me that basically he is not going to leave me and our daughter but he is a man and he's not religious so he is gonna sleep with other women, but he loves me and is going to continue supporting our family and coming home every night. To me this is just plain disrespectful and I can't live like this. I am currently formulating a plan to finish school and leave him. <br />
The members here have been so supportive, you have to think of you. You have to demand your respect by first respecting yourself. Let it go, if someone doesn't love you, you can't make them. Send me a message, we can chat if you like, but don't let them steal one more moment of your joy.