I Set Myself Up

He wasn't available to love. but I kept on for five years now. He's been kind ans respectful about it, but it actually ended about 9 months ago. He could never be mine, for reasons I don't wish to share here. It hurts too much to be without him. I've tried and can't cope without him. It hurts so much, but I live to hear even a word from him. I just can't roll with the punches like most people when it comes to moving on and finding another.      God help me.

I cry myself to sleep a few nights a week.

RubyTewes RubyTewes
31-35, F
3 Responses Mar 6, 2009

it is clique..but one day at a time....

Thanks Angells. :) I'lll try to take it a day at a time. Guess it's like giving up smoking in a way... I'm doing what I can to enjoy my new "freedom", including using free personal ads. I'll try anything healthy to move on!

Ahh.. sweetie, I am so sorry you are heartbroken and don't think this is unique to you, it happens to most of us on time or another. I have been through something similar recently so I really do empathise with you. Moving on is not easy but it is possible and you will feel better. Time is a great healer. First you have to make the decision in your heart to move on, thats the biggest step. After that let yourself feel what you need to feel in order to move on. Then take one day at a time. Make good use of the friends you have and lean on them. I send you a big hug.