Miserable Without Him
We were together for almost two years and always spoke of marriage. At about a year and a half into the relationship he had to move back home (500 miles away) but was going to return in one year. We lasted about 5 months in the long distance. Out of nowhere he started acting weird, and sure enough my worst fear came true. He broke up with me. We got back together a month later, but then 2 months after that he was engaged to a new girl. I was and still am heartbroken. I dont think I ever got closure. We loved each other so much. He used to be crazy about me and now we dont even speak. And he gets married to this new girl next week. I dont understand him. We were best friends before even dating and when we broke up he said that he never wanted to completely lose me and that we would always be best friends. But now he wont give me the time of day. For some reason he is infatuated with this girl. That's the worst part. I was insulted that we had talked of marriage and dated for 2 yrs and he was with this girl for 2 months before proposing to her. Even through that, I still can't get mad at him. It's been 8 months and I still feel miserable. I feel like something is wrong with me. I don't know how to be me without him. I am just absolutely miserable and it breaks my heart even more to know that he is getting married next week. And to see pictures of them together..I cant help but to think that that used to be me! He LOVED me! What happened?!?