Fiance Left Me For Another
I was with my fiance for close to 6 years. We weren't married yet, but were going to as soon as I found a job, so that we can move in together. He left me a month ago and I feel so wrong. This is how it happened. I asked him to come over and see me and he said he was to tired..(he just go home from work). I got upset because we hardly spend time together and started arguing
3 days later he breaks up with me. Told me he couldn't take the arguments he want to be happy and that I make him anxious.
First of all we don't really argue much.. In fact we get along very well. I started getting suspicious and began to snoop through his emails and stuff. There is another girl he began to talk to. I asked him about her he denied everything.
I was really beginning to believe he needed a break and wanted some time alone. 2 days ago I saw a conversation on the computer between him and the girl claiming they love each other. I snapped and told him I knew everything when I found out he was search to hotels near his work place.
I feel that he should have to me why we broke up from the beggining. Instead he made me feel guilty about arguing with him.. I after him telling me Im not going to argue anymore and am going to change and he's after some other ***.
On top of it all we have a son with Autism and I really need his support in this. But, I can't see his face. I am extemly close with his family and when I told his mom, she started crying really badly and I felt bad for telling her. I really did not want to stress her out.
I know Im not the first or last girl to go through this type of heart break. Websites recommend going out with friends and stuff. But I am an homebody. I really don't have friends. Even if I wanted to go out, I don't have a babysitter.
I am worried about my health,, I cannot it.. If I try to push in food I get nausea. I hope this is more of a depression symptom then a pregnancy one. I have lost a lot of weight in this past month. Im worried if I am really going through a clinical depression.. I know my son is suffering, because I'm not dedicating my time to him. I am mostly in bed crying.. I feed him and bathe him, but Im not playing with him as I use too.. Because of his Autism he really needs me
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