I started talking to this guy. And we talked for around 5 months everyday and mostly all day. I really liked him and believed he like me. So we became friends with benefits. Seeing as he wasn't over his ex yet. So I started liking him more and more. And he knew I did. But we kept being friends with benefits. and talking all the time. And well one day i told him to tell me the truth. How he really felt. So he told me that he never wants to date me. And well I got mad and kept asking him why and he wouldn't tell me. So i stopped talking to him. Then about a week later I talk to him and he tells me maybe one day he will wanna date me but right now he didn't know what he wants so he wanted to wait. And i said alright. I couldn't go back to talking to him like before because i didn't feel i had a right to. So i would text him randomly like over the next month. And when we talked he seemed interested and stuff. So i texted him the other day and he said he was stressed cuz he and his ex were maybe getting back together. So trying to be the better person i said good luck. Even though I'm crying inside. And since then I've cut off all ties with him. But i miss him. i feel like a part of me is missing. And i randomly cry because I miss him and want him back. Even though he was never mine. But i just want to know why am i not good enough for him. And why does he and every other guy want their ex over me. It makes me feel worthless like scum. I just want him to love me. someone to love me especially him. But he won't cuz he loves his ex. I just want to be good enough. But i'm not. And why am i not?