I Don't Know Where He Is

I have a brother, half brother. We used to spend summers together when my dad and I would go visit him. One day my dad and his mom got into a huge fight. The last thing I remember is waving good bye to him like I would be seeing him again, but that was the last time I ever saw him. I was 7 at the time, and he was turning 9. My dad would try and send him birthday cards, but they would aways be returned back. Eventually, we found out they moved. I don't know where he is, and I don't know how he views his dad. I want to tell him we never stopped thinking about him, but Im afraid he might not even be interested in us. I always tell myself I want to meet him, wondering how he's doing, what kind of life he lives..I've tried finding him on Facebook and the internet, but not luck. I tell myself I want to meet him sometime in my life, but I'm afraid he won't care. Of course I also tell myself that we only live once, and looking for him anyways rather than always wondering "what if" would be the smart thing to do. I guess it's just the "what ifs" that I think about today not yet meeting him that holds me back.
Mareeyuh Mareeyuh
22-25, F
Dec 12, 2012