Finally

last night i cried for the first time over what happened. there have been a couple times when i was close to tears but had not shed any before last night . I was praying about everything and even though i know i am supposed to forgive those who do bad things to me and who hurt me, I just dont think I am ready to forgive. I needed to let some of the bottled emotion out bc i was starting to feel like i had no feelings or that i had closed them off. now i realize God has helped keep the hurt at bay in order to make a decision without being overcome with the betrayal and hurt that comes with it.
heavenslilangl14 heavenslilangl14
26-30, F
1 Response Dec 4, 2012

things like this take time to process and get through. There's more hurt ahead, sorry to say... But hopefully happiness in the end. Good luck.. To you both.