I Have a Cheating Husband
I'm only 21 years old and originally from Germany.
I already apologize for any wrong grammar.
I met my husband 2010 and got married close to the end of the year. Most of that time we had a long distance relationship, since we lived in different states. I know you cant really build a relationship off of that but I was young, naive and just didn't know any better. I wanted to stay in the states and my parents had to move back to Germany and on top of that my husband was being deployed to Afghanistan so that's why we decided to get married so fast.
So during another visit only a few months before his deployment I went thru his phone while he was in the bathroom to take his shower and get ready for work, I found a text message, which made it clear that he cheated on me and wanted to do it again. I was in a shock, I very shortly after that confronted him but he didnt say a hole lot also after he got back from work.
During his deployment I know he messaged different women back and forth.
After he came back, 3 months later I found another message about him trying to hook up with somebody, of course i confronted him again.
He explained that something is wrong with him and its not my fault.
We went thru some marriage counseling but couldn't afford it for a very long time.
Again a few months later he tried again.
And now a few months later he changed all his passwords. I asked him a few weeks ago to please not to abuse it since i don't know his passwords anymore.
I got the chance to go thru his web history and found that he went on 2 of the girls Facebook pages he tried to hook up before, so he did abuse it. And Again i confronted him, we yelled at each other and he swears that he didn't do anything for except to just take a look at their website.
My trust to him is gone but I still love him and Im still afraid to lose him.
I keep expecting something else is going to show up again.
Its all I'm thinking about, especially when he is gone for work or school,
I'm sitting at home worried.
I can feel it braking me physically and mentally.
For one I keep blaming me, thinking what am I doing wrong?
You give all our love to this one person and that person just stumps a hole in it.
I already apologize for any wrong grammar.
I met my husband 2010 and got married close to the end of the year. Most of that time we had a long distance relationship, since we lived in different states. I know you cant really build a relationship off of that but I was young, naive and just didn't know any better. I wanted to stay in the states and my parents had to move back to Germany and on top of that my husband was being deployed to Afghanistan so that's why we decided to get married so fast.
So during another visit only a few months before his deployment I went thru his phone while he was in the bathroom to take his shower and get ready for work, I found a text message, which made it clear that he cheated on me and wanted to do it again. I was in a shock, I very shortly after that confronted him but he didnt say a hole lot also after he got back from work.
During his deployment I know he messaged different women back and forth.
After he came back, 3 months later I found another message about him trying to hook up with somebody, of course i confronted him again.
He explained that something is wrong with him and its not my fault.
We went thru some marriage counseling but couldn't afford it for a very long time.
Again a few months later he tried again.
And now a few months later he changed all his passwords. I asked him a few weeks ago to please not to abuse it since i don't know his passwords anymore.
I got the chance to go thru his web history and found that he went on 2 of the girls Facebook pages he tried to hook up before, so he did abuse it. And Again i confronted him, we yelled at each other and he swears that he didn't do anything for except to just take a look at their website.
My trust to him is gone but I still love him and Im still afraid to lose him.
I keep expecting something else is going to show up again.
Its all I'm thinking about, especially when he is gone for work or school,
I'm sitting at home worried.
I can feel it braking me physically and mentally.
For one I keep blaming me, thinking what am I doing wrong?
You give all our love to this one person and that person just stumps a hole in it.
By:
GermanLori
Age:
18-21
,
Female
