I Do Not Know How to Trust Him Again
I trusted him for 5 years ... only to find out that it was all a lie! I decided to give him another chance but how do I trust him again? After everything that he has done to me ... averaging an affair a year including one after we got back together ... how do I trust him. There is another woman that he is talking to that I have never heard of. He says they are just friends and he has known her forever yet I have never heard of her! He is writting her emails which is where most of the other affairs started, he has a picture of her on his phone, and the second I walked in he closed the letter he was writting to her. When I tell him to prove my susspisions wrong he says either I get over it or he is going to get pissed off at me. In the past when nothing was going on he would just show me. Now he says that he does not need me beong a private investigator.
We are in year 6 now and I do not know how to move forward when he keeps so many secrets! Should I trust him blindly or should I be affraid? Am I right and if I am what do I do? I know in my heart of hearts I can not go through all of this again. I am pregnant with our third child and he is not here for me. He does not care if I am hurting I am just supposed to GET OVER IT!