Have I Done Enough ?

S ince a very early age, I knew my son was different. He was a fussy baby, never able to be consoled. When a toddler, he never wanted to sleep. He had his own schedule. At 4, he was started on his first medicine, ritalin. He is a very bright child, well above average IQ. But life has been so difficult for him, and for us. He was hospitalized for the first time at age five. he was the youngest patient to have been admitted to that psych. center. We were given numerous diagnoses:ADHD, ODD, Bi-polar, OCD, but none ever really seems to fit. Since his first admit, he has be hospitalized 7 mores time. His last was in a long term residential center. He is now almost 13, and will finally be coming home for good next week after having spent 18 months in the hospital. It was only a year ago that we received the news that his true diagnoses is PDD-NOS. He also has Tourettes. I feel blessed that my son is verbal and able to communicate with me. Some autism groups dont really accept people who's kids 'only' have PDD. It has been hard to find anyone willing to accept me into their group and help me through this. I feel very lonely and afraid I have failed my son in some way. I feel like if I cant just find the right doctor, or clinic, or therapy I can make him better. I feel I havent done enough....