My Life Is Complicated

I have a very complicated life/love story, and at the end of it all, i just feel sad, lonely, depressed and need to feel loved, wanted, needed, attractive and so much more....

A few years into our marriage, my husband cheated on me. I forgave him at the time, and we moved on.

A few years later, he did it again....i turned to a friend for solace. It was not a physical relationship, just via e-mail. Husband found out about it, and in return, as revenge, cheated on me again. This time with someone very close to me.

I cannot leave due to many circumstances preventing me doing so, as well as my children, whom i do not wish to drag through a divorce.

As a result of all of the above, i just feel so alone....and wish i had someone i could turn to...someone who i could speak to, who could love me without hurting me.

Where do u find such a person though? All i seem to find are men looking only for sex, whilst it's the emotional attachment i crave.

Sad and alone....
Reemberry Reemberry
36-40, F
2 Responses Dec 3, 2012

Well not all men are looking for sex and btw shame on your husband for coming down on you while he is out having sex w/women.You are probably way better off divorcing him and the kids will have to make adjustments.You can't wait till one day he brings home herpes,or hep C or worse AIDS.
The thing I always think about is maybe he only fesses up to what he has been caught doing and not the other times that he hasn't.
In any case i am sorry for what you are going through and it would seem to me that an online friendship would do you good,you just need to know a few tricks to keeping it discreet those aren't so hard to master.I hope your time on EP brings you some comfort.

Thank u!

hang in there :/