My mother has always been a vile and vicous woman. She lives to make everyones life a living hell. When I was a kid my parents would always fight.

When I was 9 years old my parents got divorced. He went to work in another country. He would be gone 4-6 months at a time. During that time I would stay with my mother. She would call me every name in the book. Scream at me for not having any friends.

I have so many memories of crying that's almost all I can remember of my childhood. I got bullied in school and I became very depressed. My grades were terrible. When I was 12 years old my mom said "you're grown up now, get out" She would kick me out of the house at 4 in the morning. I would have take the bus to my dad's apartment and that's where I would stay by myself. I would cry and call my dad. He would just say that my mom was crazy etc.

This pattern went on for years. When I was 14 a social worker was making house calls when my mother and I got into a fight. She janked me out of there. She said that she couldn't let me in that kind of environment that it wasn't safe. I asked her if that was the worst fight she had ever seen. She woulnd't answer me, but I kept pushing until she said yes. She was a social worker, problem families was her job. Yet mine was the most dysfuntional.

I stayed with my uncle and his family for a couple weeks. One night I overheard my aunt ask my uncle when I would leave? They got into an argument that night.

I cried myself to sleep, I felt unwanted and unloved.
I didn't want to live. My mom would say sorry (which she wouldn't mean) and I would forgive her, because she was my mother afterall. But the same thing would keep happening.

She would apologize I would forgive her. I'm 24 years old now and I've had enough. She keeps mentioning how I did poorly in middle school. I'm in college now working on getting my bachelors degree. I'm doing really well but she keeps dragging me down. Telling me I'll never amount to anything that I'm a failure like my dad.

This is it. I'm tired of fighting, tired of going through life like this. I've decided to cut her out of my life. She's going to die a lonely crazy woman. That will be her life. I don't care, I don't feel sorry for her. She's the most horrible person I've ever met. There aren't enough words in any language to explain to her how much damage she's done to me.

People tend to say politically correct things when it comes to a bad parent like sitting and explaining will some how fix the person. Well nothing can fix her, she could be on the doctor phil show and still be the same.

I'm done. I'm gonna work my butt off and get good grades I'm gonna get a job, then I'm gonna get married and have a family. My own family and she won't be a part of it. I'll finally be happy in this lonely miserable life. If you're reading this, you're not the only one going through something like this. I hope you take comfort in that. And I hope you stop letting vile people pollute you and you're experience of this life.
nexus321 nexus321
22-25, M
Aug 27, 2014