Replay

so in 8th grade I had a few girls that liked me. They were girls that were my friends but I didn't really like them. Instead i liked another girl named Jessica. I don't have a problem talking to girls but i get really nervous around girls that i like. Its weird. So whenever i saw her i never said a word, hahahah it was hilarious and pretty sad. We texted a lot tho and i am pretty embarrassed to say that. She knew i liked her and she told me that she liked me but did not want a relationship. After about a month or 2 she told me that we should just be friends. I was pretty upset about this and it took me while to get over her. When i was finally over her i felt really comfortable around her and talked to her all the time and flirted. About a month of this.........she tells me that she likes me. I am really shocked and surprised so the next day at school i asked her out. The problem was that i just asked her out because i was surprised and in shock that she liked me. She said yes but i don't think i meant it when i asked her. After two weeks i broke up with her and i guess i really hurt her. I am now a junior and have started to have feelings for her. She is a girl that doesn't care about popularity, she drinks and parties but i do too. Actually i only drank like two nights and i prefer to smoke marijuanna. I don't like it because it makes me look cool or anything but because it relaxes your body and every bad thing seems to fade away and you are really happy.......and hungry. So ive liked her for like 2 weeks and i have been talking to her. She does talk to a lot of guys so it has gotten really hard to read any signs. sometimes she will start the conversation or the flirting but i feel jealousy towards the other guys she is talking to. Well Prom is in about 2 months so i guess ill post how everything goes next time.