But I Can't, This Is Not Right :/

My boyfriend and I have been going out nearly 6 months. We were friends before anything happened between us. I'm going to call my boyfriend Sam in this story. I became friends with Sam in our first year in highschool as freshmen. I have also been friends with Sam's friend, Adam for that long. They are both very different yet similar. Sam is tall with a 6 pack abs and gorgeous brown eyes and has the kind of "nerdy" look which I think is cute. He is brilliant at sports and we get on really well and he just literally sweeps me off my feet. Adam is a little taller than me with these amzing amber eyes. He's really smart, funny and we have this amazing chemistry together as friends. Adam has had a crush on me for as long as I've known him and I briefly liked him before me and Sam started dating.

Sam is wonderful; he showers me with kisses and compliments and holds me so so tight to keep me safe. I am very attracted to him and I love him. But sometimes, he likes to go places with his friends and this leaves me with Adam where we bond even more. Sam is absent from school a lot so whenever he's off, I hang around with Adam.

Adam is open about his feelings towards me. He wrote a song for me and wants to sing it to me. He gave me the lyrics one day and it is about the one he wants to be with dating someone else and how hurt he is by that. I think that song is just the cutest thing ever. I love Sam and I know he loves me, but I don't think he'd write a song for me like Adam did.

Sam is nearly always at training for some sport and we only text for a bit after his training. Meanwhile, Adam likes to text me a lot about various different things. I like talking to Adam. He makes me laugh.

So over time, I think I am beginning to develop a bit of a crush on Adam - and he likes me too and is best friends with Sam so I don't know what's gonna happen. I love Sam and don't wanna hurt him but sometimes I feel a bit neglected by him. He's lovely, but not as soppy or romantic as Adam and I am such a romantic so I love to be showered with love and affection.

I don't ever wanna leave Sam but..
LittleMissDimples LittleMissDimples
18-21, F
Dec 16, 2012