48 Feeling Like 16 Needs Your Support!

I am still having difficulty getting through this crush, obsession, whatever you want to call it. She's got 11 more days until she returns to Europe. I want so badly to be with her during this last weekend that she'll be here.

I've been trying to play the "father figure" with her. It's succeeded in increasing her interest in me. She's been receiving my attention more, smiling each time she sees me. I'm sure that it's a more personal smile than a professional one, because she appears to brighten up when she smiles.

I need help because this feels like an addiction. When I'm unable to see her like today, I get anxious and loose my concentration. My focus returns when I can sit and talk with her for a while. I need more willpower and support to keep from making an *** of throwing myself at her.

I'm week.

This story is in reference to Haven't felt like this in .. 30 years (link:http://www.experienceproject.com/uw.php?e=1092982)
48feeln16 48feeln16
46-50, M
Jul 20, 2010