Anyone I Know I Can Get.

I'm trying to communicates my thoughts without sounding like an immature teenager. I hope it works.

I- Where to start...
I have a boyfriend. We've been together for about seven months now. I love him. I'm sure I do. Yet I get distracted so easily...
When we first began our relationship, he was worried about his best friend, as he thought he was better in every way than him. He was worried I'd fall in love with him. I promised him I wouldn't. Yet I broke that promise.

I spent so long convincing my boyfriend I'd never fall for his best friend. And I spent so long thinking about his best friend...
We built up a friendship. We got closer. But now, when we're good friends, and we text every night, I have become distracted again. Maybe it's a good thing.

My best friend. The person I spent so long convincing my boyfriend I viewed as a brother. And I really thought I did. Until a few days ago, when he revealed he found me physically attractive, my view of him completely changed. I have been overcome with a passionate sort of lust towards him. But a lust that will stay only in my fantasies.

So there it is. A short, summed up version of my story. No doubt I'll get over this lust, and continue on with my boyfriend. But really, I don't want to. I want to feel this lust until I can fulfill my fantasies. I know I won't...

But it makes for wild imaginations.
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13-15, F
May 16, 2012