I Have a Crush On Someone I Shouldn't
So I have this huge crush on my nephew's girlfriend's cousin (I hope you understand). I first laid eyes on her when our families met up at my nephew's mom's (my sister's) house. She was just standing there in the living room when I walked out of one of the bedrooms. I walked back into the room I left to make sure my hair was brushed, the my clothes were straight, and that I smelled great. That whole weekend I tried to say things to make her laugh and to try and get to know her. That was back in end of June early July. I haven't seen her since then, but my mind never stopped thinking about her. I saw her yesterday at her cousins birthday party, but I had just gotten off work when I got there and she was only minutes away from leaving. The good thing is I got to see her beautiful face.
I shouldn't have a crush on her because she is 5 years younger than me which makes her underage, she's straight, and she has a boyfriend. If had the confidence to talk to her and tell her how I feel, I'd let her know that I would treat her better than all of her past/current relationships combined. I would make her my everything. I would get her anything that she wanted. All she would have to do is call or text me and I would be by her side to hold her to take away any pain she feels. I want to tell her how I feel, but I don't know how. I don't care if I shouldn't have a crush on her. I like her more that anything in the world at this point and it hurts me that I can't talk to her to let her know I feel this way about her. I want to know what to do so I can take action instead of hiding behind my shields that have been built since I was little and have only hardened since then.
I just don't know what to do with myself anymore. :'(
I shouldn't have a crush on her because she is 5 years younger than me which makes her underage, she's straight, and she has a boyfriend. If had the confidence to talk to her and tell her how I feel, I'd let her know that I would treat her better than all of her past/current relationships combined. I would make her my everything. I would get her anything that she wanted. All she would have to do is call or text me and I would be by her side to hold her to take away any pain she feels. I want to tell her how I feel, but I don't know how. I don't care if I shouldn't have a crush on her. I like her more that anything in the world at this point and it hurts me that I can't talk to her to let her know I feel this way about her. I want to know what to do so I can take action instead of hiding behind my shields that have been built since I was little and have only hardened since then.
I just don't know what to do with myself anymore. :'(
By:
IHeartSoccer
Age:
18-21
