Would Be Happy If You Read ItI always have a crush on somebody that i shouldn't. I mean it's like i was born to pick the wrong guys. Let me give you a few examples and maybe you should understand it better. I had a crush on a boy 6 years older than me when i was 15. Maybe i shouldn't say boy. And i frequently had crush on my best friends. (a boy and two girls) And boy was my best friend's crush so i never told him. I've never told the girls either! Yes i know, i'm a coward. And i once had a crush on my brother's best friend yet i was just a little girl plus it's acceptable at that age. :P I had a crush on a boy who wears a silver ring on his finger and i saw them kissing in front of me and what is more i still see them everyday. Now i have a crush on a womanizer. He **** everything that moves.
Suddenly it dawned on me that i actually don't want to be loved. I have low self-esteem that's why i always have a feeling that i don't deserve love. I pick those guys just to feel the pain and not to have any serious relationships. I'm glad that i've found the problem but i dont know how to fix myself.