Kind Of...?

     It's not that he's not interested it's that we've never said a word to each other. Oh, it's a shame. He's such a lovely person. But I just watch him and think about him and even dream of him. But lately it hasn't been as much of a Taylor Swift music video as it is me becoming physically sick. I've had anxiety attacks triggered by him. It's so embarrassing. I'll just stand there, with my eyes closed, shaking like a dog. 
   The anxiety causes me to become depressed. Lately, I haven't been able to eat much. The food makes me sick and go to sleep for hours. I'll just drag myself around, growing more and more frustrated with myself. I have very low self-esteem and I know that I'll probably never talk to him. He's a senior. I'm a freshman. It won't happen.
    I should get used to that feeling...
anothersilhouette anothersilhouette
18-21, F
1 Response Dec 24, 2011

and 5 months later, nothing has really changed.