Doesn't Everyone?

 My dark side, or bad tendencies, are mainly focused inward.  I mean, people make me angry from time to time, but usually I'm just angry at myself.  When I look back on my life, I haven't really done anything that bad to anyone.  However, the mistakes I have made haunt me so much I just become furious at myself for being so stupid.  I know it's foolish to get upset about things you can't change, but I can't seem to help it.  Sometimes it's hard for me to focus on what I'm doing for that reason.  I forgive other people so easily, but I can't forgive myself.  I don't self-harm, but sometimes I want to.  Even being a nice guy, people keep telling me I look like I'm full of anger.  I guess years of holding in self-hatred has made my bodily movements pretty stiff and clumsy.  This is gonna give me an ulcer or something... 

AppleJelle AppleJelle
22-25, M
1 Response Feb 17, 2009

Yeah, this sounds familiar!