Yes, I Do, Too...As many of the people here, I do not see myself as I am. I think everything started when I was 9 years old, when I was sexually abused. After that, I hated my body, because somehow that was an ob
My first boyfriend confessed he was gay...
I married my second boyfriend. He cheated on me repeatedly, but I stayed with him because I thought I was never going to find someone else so blind as to look at me and say I was pretty.
After 8 years of relationship, I had a baby. My stomach is now flabby and covered in ugly stretch marks. But I am no longer fat. Actually, I am quite the opposite: I am almost 5' 6" and my weight is 104lbs. I see myself in the mirror, and I still see an ugly being... the boobs are gone somewhere very far away, my stomach is flabby, I am a sac of bones without curves.
I divorced my husband a year ago, and found the perfect guy, sweet and understanding, super fit, younger and handsome... and I simply cannot believe he finds me attractive. He has many female friends that look like swimsuit models: beautiful, with awesome bodies and personality. Why is he with me, then? I can't understand :(
Ladies, we all have something in common. We cannot accept ourselves. Something is hurting inside, is blurring the way we see ourselves, impairs our understanding and don't let us breath.
I would like to find someone who's going through the same thing and wants to share her story more closely to try to find a solution. I'm tired and cannot do this alone...
Please feel free to send me a message if this sounds like a good idea to you.
shroob66 36-40, F 2 Responses 0 Feb 22, 2012