Tough Decisions

My dog's biopsy report today came back with infiltrative lipoma instead of a mast cell tumor. Although it is not as critical, we are not in the clear...

I am not sure what to say or what to do. I knew either way the growth on her foot had to be something. The doctor had taken an emotional stance on it and said that this particular dog had really touched him. He looked like he was going to cry when I picked her up last week which I took as a bad thing. I thought he knew something bad and wanted to wait until the results came in to be sure. So I was thinking the worst case for everything. I still am because I am worried.

Though waiting is an option...neglecting is not one. I've been pouring over dog cancer research and diets. She's seven so keeping her in good health will make these years much more pleasant for her, happier too. A lot of this is waiting until the next bit of news. After her stitches are out, we will find out what's going on with her foot in terms of pain. Then we are going to meet with an oncologist to discuss our options of treatments, percentages of success rates, complications.

Part of something nagging in my head about writing stories like this is in the event that someone who doesn't really get it will comment. They don't know how much my dog means to me and can't understand why. They'll think what they want about the effort, attention, and time I'm putting into this. Yet to me, it's important, it is what matters. She matters to me. Oh well. People will say what they will but I know what's in my heart. Opinions won't change how I feel about her. : )

My dog has been through everything with me. Right after I got married, we adopted her. She's gone everywhere with me since. She hangs out with me in the front seats when we stop somewhere. She's a well traveled dog. Familiar with staying overnight in hotels if we have to. She used to sit in the back with my daughter until we had the baby. She gets too excited to sit next to the baby. Sometimes she goes to my spouse's job and runs around. But she's usually right by my side. Wherever I am, she's not far away.

Before I got the results, I made a decision because I knew something had to be done about it no matter what. Or at least I should have that financial cushion ready to help during emergencies if anything happens. I was planning on starting again with sculpture and it was on hold because of my dog's health. Now that I found this news out I decide to make some changes. I decided to invest any profits I am going to make with sculpture and metal clay towards her. I've set a goal with a marker that will be updated. As well as tribute pieces that hopefully set some awareness with dog cancer. I am hoping that the concept of the work represents the bond I have with my dog. I don't know what it would be yet because a dog sculpture would be too obvious. It needs to be something special. Just like how I feel about having her in my life. Ever since I found out about this growth, my mind has been wrapped around this issue. I need to redirect this worry into something productive. Something that will get it all out so I can better focus on spending time being happy. Spending time with my dog and enjoying the time we have together...

A friend who's a vet tech and fellow animal lover sent me this. It's exactly what I was thinking!

JUST A DOG

From time to time, people tell me, "lighten up, it's just a dog,"
or "that's a lot of money for just a dog."

They don't understand the distance travelled, the time spent,
or the costs involved for "just a dog."

Some of my proudest moments have come about with "just a dog."

Many hours have passed and my only company was "just a dog,"
but I did not once feel slighted.

Some of my saddest moments have been brought about by
"just a dog," and in those days of darkness, the gentle touch
of "just a dog" gave me comfort and reason to overcome the day.

If you, too, think it's "just a dog," then you probably understand
phrases like "just a friend," "just a sunrise," or "just a promise."

"Just a dog" brings into my life the very essence of friendship,
trust, and pure unbridled joy.

"Just a dog" brings out the compassion and patience
that make me a better person.

Because of "just a dog" I will rise early, take long walks and look
longingly to the future.

So for me and folks like me, it's not "just a dog"
but an embodiment of all the hopes and dreams of the future,
the fond memories of the past, and the pure joy of the moment.

"Just a dog" brings out what's good in me and diverts my thoughts
away from myself and the worries of the day.

I hope that someday they can understand that its' not "just a dog"
but the thing that gives me humanity and keeps me from being
"just a man" or "just a woman."

So the next time you hear the phrase "just a dog,"
just smile, because they "just don't understand."

~Unknown Author~

Tekkamaki Tekkamaki
31-35
2 Responses Mar 2, 2010

Will do! A lot of it is waiting and appointments. It's going to be aaaagonizing. So yeah, lol! I am getting the materials I need to start this shipped in a few days so here we go!

"I need to redirect this worry into something productive. Something that will get it all out so I can better focus on spending time being happy." That's such a simple but powerful coping method! Please keep us updated about things, k?