The Misfortune Of IrresponsibilityIt sucks to end up with a DUI, mostly because of court and losing your license and having to deal with motherf*cking cops. I was out for Valentine's day with my boyfriend of a month. He was driving that night but was drinking as well, which should have been the first red flag. Well since I wasn't driving I was drinking myself. He ended up passing out and some people had to help me carry him to the car. It was pretty late and I really wanted to get home but I didn't know the city we were in very well. However, against my better judgement, I decided to try to make it home even though I'd never driven under the influence before. Lo and behold, a cop ended up behind me and turned his lights on. Come to find out I had a taillight out - how wonderful - but he suspected I was drunk and made me get out and do the sobriety tests and whatnot. Well I have never been in trouble for anything in my life so this experience to me was very new. I didn't know I could refuse the breathalyzer so I took it. Bad decision. It's because of my number that I am being sentenced to 48 hours in jail, alcohol safely school, and a restricted license for a year, which is forcing me to move back to a town with better public transportation. The worst part is, however, having to tell my parents about it - their behavior records are perfect and they are quick to judge, which leaves me utterly terrified to tell them because I don't think they'll understand.
But I realize that my criminal record comes nowhere near close to being who I am as a person. I know this isn't the end of the world and the law will always lose to me if it tries to make me feel like less of a person. I made a mistake one time only that many people make a few times a week and I got caught. But realize this - if you are in the same situation, never, ever let yourself think that things are going to get difficult. You've got to push through it and realize that you are just a human being who made a mistake (as we ALL do) and that you are capable of transcending the consequences of this situation to become a better person and to prove that you simply made a mistake yet you are still worthy of everything everyone else is.