It Never Ends

I used to think my family was amazing, I loved spending time with them and we enjoyed the holidays together, Then I grew up and started understanding things that I heard, I started piecing things together. My family has pretty much fallen apart. They started falling apart the spring my uncle was killed in a car accident. Everyone turned on each other instead of being there for each other. My mom nana and uncle take perscription pain killers, And I mean all the time. My nana has take my sisters and I on her "Pill runs" to go purchase them from friends. After I had my tonsils removed they took my pain killers. And when I had my daughter they tried to get me to get the strong pain killers so they could take them. I am no idiot, All I needed was Ibprofen. They all talk behind each others back and refuse to help each other out in times of need. When I was pregnant and homeless they did not offer us a place to sleep or anything. My mother doesn't have either of my little sisters. One lives with my nana, The other is with my aunt and uncle. Now my mom just recently got out of a abusive relationship. She abandoned all her children for this man and all he did was beat her time and time again. He broke her ribs, busted her ear drums, gave her black eyes, threatend to kill her children. She lived in a tent with him. This went on for over a year. My relationship with her is...Pending. As for my Dad he just got out of jail for larceny. He lives with a crack head in a boarding house. So sadly my daughter has no family to grow up with. There is so much more I just don't feel like going too deep into it.
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3 Responses May 16, 2012

What kills us makes us stronger, as they say. And in reality, it does. We learn from these experiences so we can shape ourselves differently. My family problems are not like this, but just know that you can make your future much better than your past. Know that you are a good person. Your family issues do not define you. It's hard when you're not close to your family, especially once you have children, as you have experienced. Just try to be the BEST parent you can be. Do not let history repeat itself. Focus on your children and their happiness. :)

Wow, makes my problems feel small :P<br />
I....honestly, I think you just need to have faith in yourself and your ability to get through this and do what's right for yourself and your daughter. From the way things look, it doesn't seem like your family will start mending anytime soon, so you're going to need to rely on yourself. You are your daughter's family-don't let her be exposed to such a twisted household! Honestly, I sort of think just breaking all comnections may be best..maybe...<br />
Thank you for sharing your story-I hope you manage to find a way to get through <3

I too would urge you to seek comfort in the house of our Lord. I like you had one incident where I was almost homeless. I had lost a job out West. Here I am in a strange city, and I really didn't know anyone. I had only been there for 3 months. I had cousins out there but they were pretty much strangers. I was helped out there by a brother in the Lord. I just didn't want to go on taking from him. I went back home even though I was told to stay out there. I want to confess that I wasn't sure if my brother in the Lord was totally altruistic. These are my fears and probably reflect on me more than him. I was afraid for what he might want in return.