I Have a Dysfunctional Family
Even though I am with someone I still feel left out of her life and alone. She doesn't talk to me about what's on her mind, and isn't as affectionate as I was hoping she would be. I question myself about the love we have and whether it is a good idea to just let it go now or to continue to try to make each other see the love. We are two totally different people. She wishes I wasn't like I am and I wish she wasn't like she is. It's frustrating. I am all about the small things in life meaning the biggest things in my heart and she is the exact opposite. (ex. she has yet to read my vday card I got her and she says it's because we were arguing). I have been falling asleep for the past three nights with us mad at each other and not speaking which leads into me having dreams about our negative relationship and wake up to hating her. I'm ready to throw in the towel and say forget it. I'm better off alone.